Oh yes, I´m back again.
First of a I have to say (and that´s a very good beginning, I think) that I hate one thing: The political direction left. I saw an interesting article in the TV today, and I read something from one of those "I am fat and ugly, but I have to save the discriminated people"- girls in a forum. Oh-my-god. I hate this. It´s is always (Yes, always) the same. They always tell us the same story. And it´s boring. Espespecially when they are german, and they think that they are the best, and think that Americans are dumb.
Woha, you can´t imagine how angry I get if I read something like this. But always, I have to remember that I can´t do anything against this awful failure in their tiny brains. Whatever, it would be helpless to change the configuration in their brains. One time you are an idiot, you´ll be an idiot for your whole life. Another problem is, that I can´t write posts in this forum. But that´s another theme.
Yes, I wanted to say another thing: I love, yes, I really love Manchester United. I´m sad I didn´t get those tickets for the EM, but if ManU could win the Champions League, it would be a little light for me. They´re playing so beautiful football, that even the brazilians could pack their things and fly home.
I really can say, that this day got much better, since Wayne Rooney shot his second goal. I´m happy, even if I have chemistry- testings tomorrow. But I also learned for this crap, so I don´t have to worry. So, I hope ManU wins the Champions League, and next year, the EM is in Austria. England win will.
But now I have to go, anotherwise I´m too tired tomorrow, and I write a bad mark, and you and me don´t want this. `Cause then I couldn´t write anymore!
Nice greetings from your Commander Nile, sleep tight and well,
Táro aka Commander Nile
Fuck...I forgot to write something in here, that´s not good... Aw, I dont care, so I´m writing something in here now.
I had math-classwork this wednesday, and today I got this shit back, and...Yeah, it was my average mark. I think I´m not gonna get away from the fucking 4, but what can I do? My list for the second semester isn´t very beautiful...German 4, Latin 5, Math 4. But I think I´m gonna do better in English and in the second classworks.
On wednesday I was in the wonderful land of the darkness. This means, I was at the home of the Gregor/Dante, whatever, and we played Battlefront II, which you can also name Bertelfront II, and then he kicked some Strogg in their asses, when he played Quake 4. Oh, I can´t wait to play with him over internet...We´ll see if he is better than me, but I dont think so, I´m too skilled because I was playing Battlefield 2142 last time.
And...I´m writing a new story. After a long passive time in Star Wars things, I suddenly decided to begin a new part and in I think five days I wrote twentyone pages. In German, but even if I´m not very lucky with my stile, I think that you might enjoy it. Gregor sayd that he enjoyed the first ten pages, but I don´t know if he is lying to me. Oh, little joke, sorry General Dark.
My powerful brain has invented new ideas of Star Wars fanfictions, and I´m going to write a second part of dantes story, but this is Top Secret. So, when I´m finished with my first fanfiction, which plays in the time of the "Rise of the Empire", and describes the wonderful story out of the sight of an Imperial Stormtrooper. But I won´t tell more secrets .
So, finally I´m finished with this entry, but now I will write some more in here, I recognized that I have a blog.
So, till then,
Wow.I didn´t write a long time,I think..not very good.Yeah,I had something to do,and sometimes,I just want to relax.Maybe by playing a good round BF1942,or playing Quake.Yes,PC-or Mac Games can be very relaxing.Espescially if you´re angry,or just want to shoot around.No,EA didn´t pay me money for advertising.
But back to theme.I´m sure you know the feeling,if someone you like,cheats on you.I don´t like this persons.Maybe I should just cut the bands between my fucking "friends",give them a fine kick in their little asses,and then go home,sit before my pc,and kill NPCs.Maybe even real players,but that makes no real difference.
But he...this dumbass thinks I´m this silly,I wouldn´t registrate,that he´s cheating on me.No,I´m NOT that silly.And I hate people cheating at me.Never,never do this.No,you won´t die,but I will be very angry at you,and since you don´t want this,you won´t cheat at me,understand?Fine.Dumbass Thomas didn´t understand this,and now I´ll kick him in his little dirty ass,so he understands my law.
By the way:I was in Kopenhagen for 3 days,and it was wonderful.I like northern Europe,it isn´t that shit as Austria is.Even Germany is better.And in Kopenhagen there were riots,tragically I did not registrate them.The were in Norrebro,and we didn´t went up there.Sad,but next time,I´ll help this Che Guevara asses.Police is our all enemy.
But Riots in Ireland are the best ones,I have to say .I don´t know what to write now,so I´ll give up for today.We´ll see us again soon.
Once again I have to give up one of my beloved friends..I can´t take it anymore to be the idiot all the time.My friend,I can forgive..I´m able to forget things,but I can´t change things.I still hope you don´t forget the time we had together,but since today I´m not sure if I have a place in your life anymore..I don´t think so.
There were 3 1/2 lucky years,but it was YOUR wish to cut the band of brothers between us.We were best friends you told me,only 2 months ago..I was blindet,but I think I failed to see the signes of time.I dunno what happend with you,I dunno why you´re know that kind of guy,I thought you would never be.
Maybe,I did mistakes,many of them,but you have to know,that you were always one of my best friends..I think,you were my best friend..How lucky I could be,if I could make thinks unhappen..But I don´t have the power to live on in this way.For now on,it´s your way,not ours,and I wish you luck to manage your life,without losing more of your friends.Yes,you need luck to manage that.
All I can say is,that you should find a good doctor.I can´t help you with your problems,you don´t want to,but you should go into a hospital,or talk to someone whos job is to help people like you.Maybe it´s just the age,that makes you that crazy..But from now on,there is one soul less in your world.
There is a song,called NEMO by Nightwish,and the refrain really touches my heart,since I´m listening to it all the time I´m writing this text...
Oh how I wish for soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart,lost in the dark
For hope I´d give right everything..
Sometimes I feel like I´m a very,very big idiot.Like in this moment,as I just had a look at the deepest grounds of mankind.Syphilis doesn´t sound very funny,but after looking at the article on wikipedia,I know better.It isn´t funny.I hope I won´t get any of this morbids.
So,that´s enough of cruel things.I dunno what to write,because in the last days my life seemed (for one of the first times since my 10th birthday) not that bad,as it is all the time.It´s good to have friends,you know..The only thing I really really hate is my teacher,but I don´t think that will interest you.Even if there are not that much persons in here.
I would like to talk about my friend Kadaj,Chrissi,whatever.I don´t remember his name,my brain isn´t the best one.To bad he had to go for one week since yesterday,every day with him was awesome.No,he wasn´t here in Vienna,but it still is a pleasure to see the green signe behind his ICQ-name.It makes my day a little better everytime.
Yeah,as you know,I don´t have much friends,I really like,and I don´t know if they´re happy if I like them,but I simply want to have someone I can hang on.I need someone to hang on,because I don´t think I could handle my live without any friends.Sure I could,sure I would live on,but my life would seem a lot more lonely.My friends would leave an empty space.
For every person in the world,there is a tiny treasure,which waits for the owner.Sometimes you need your whole life to find it,and sometimes you find it very early.But I´m sure,you´ll find it.And with that treasure,your life becomes much lighter.It´s on you,how long the light will flush through your flesh (Wordgame),but this treasure can make you happy for a long,or even a short time.
And I´m sure,I´ll find my treasure too.I just have too look for it.And mybe I´ve found it already,because my friends are my treasure.Who knows..
So I´ll go to sleep and wish you all a very good night,
Another horrible school day,but I think,I´m just getting tired of this.Maybe that´s in my nature,I´m closing my soul against this idiots,but in this case,I´m just getting tired of them.Ignore them-That´s the best solution,my friend dante already said that months before,but I didn´t want to hear to him.Mistake,yes,I know,I´m sorry,but now I know better.Thanks.
My days are getting very lonely sometimes..I think I need a warm,soft woman beside me,which purrs when I stroke her.Yeah,Ernest Hemingway greets us all.In my definition,the best sort of women/girls is that one,which is like a cat.All men (Those,I met already) like cats.And me too.
I imagine to have a woman beside me,female warmth.In cold winter days just like this today,this could be one of my dreams.It´s sad,that not all dreams are getting real.But as my friend dante (Yes,I know that he´s called very often in here) said :"One time,you´ll find your own girl too."-Hard to believe,but now I believe him.
Yeah,he´s one of the few persons,which are not my parents,who I believe.There aren´t much people I trust,and without him,I don´t think I could carry on living in this world.Yes,I´m repeating myself.But I don´t care about this..
But enough of this.In the last few weeks I wanted to start a riot..Inspired by the IRAs doing in Northern Ireland,I want to tell the police in Vienna,that Vienna isn´t the island of the lucky people.I think I have to grow a lil´bit,before I can do this,and then I will have a little visit at Belfast.
Then we can start our fucking riot.
So,with a warm greet,and ´till then,
Well,finally I´m here.Since I read my friends blog,dante,I thought that I should do this for my own too.Thanks to Dante,Gregor,whatever,anyway.
Well..I don´t really know what to write for my first post,´cause I have to do some training,it´s not that easy for me to write in English than in German.Anyway,my first thought,when I made the choice to write a webblog,was,that I just hate my class.I just wanted to write that.
In four years of fucking school (the first four grades in primary school weren´t that fucked up),I recognized,that you can´t really trust people.I´m sorry if I´m writing like dante,but the human race is something you can´t describe,because even if you would take the worst words,you couldn´t describe it like the way it is.
Four years.In this four years I met 3 or 4 people,I really like,2 or 3 I like not that good as the other ones,and I met 20 people,which were absolutly stupid.So,you see,I hate up to 60% of my class,because you can´t live together with people like them.You want to meet them?Trust me,you don´t want to.
Anyway,I hate my class.Special thanks to my friends Christian,Gregor,Bene,Thomas...and those 2,3 other.You saved me from jumping out of the window.
I know,I´m just writing trash,but it feels very good to see this all on "paper",so everybody can read it.Yes,if someone of this class I don´t like looks at this..Fuck you.
So,with my first post finished,I think I´m feeling better than before writing it..Next one is coming very soon,I think...